quote

"sometimes you have to stand up when standing is not easy"

from street fighter: the legend of Chun Li

long time no blogging

*oooyeaahhh! i'm writing now. i could not remember how many weeks i have left my blog aside. now, i'm working on my assignment on Bursa Malaysia listing procedures but the internet is damn slow i i always end up at *page load error*. this week will be the bussiet week of all. just finish my french paper this morning and i just completed the 3 semesters of french without being able to construct a 'real' french sentence. takat banjour, je' mapelle syafiq tue bleh la... =p i got two more test and an assignment to submit at the end of this week. hectic kn??
*lately i just happened to had issues with people. i don't know why. it is because of me? i rather to see it as my fault but with this one guy i just could not blame myself. i don't really mind if he called me selfish but "kau dh la tak nampak". it was too much man. seriously, terngiang-ngiang lagi kat telinga. i know that i am damn celupar buat as far as i concern i never use anything that harsh. nevermind, he doesn't knows how hard to life with that conditions and that is why he can spelled it out easily.
*enough with issues. now lets talk about raya. this year raya was booorrinnnnggg!!! i don't want to complain but if u happened to read my last year raya post that is the exactly what i hate about raya. so, don't want to write it for twice. but, but...this raya i learned to cook quite a few of dishes. the reason? my mom felt sick on the 2nd raya and we adik beradik have to prepare the rendang and other things on our own.
*before i forget, i complety make fool of myself when i decided to sing during pekan syawal. tapikan, if not me who else is going to do all that crazy stuff?? and sorry amir for ruined your music.
*as suggested by someone i should make review on papadom. this award winnig film received a big round f applause from the audience. i just love the comedy in this film. other than that, the story line not really intresting. owh,of course penyeri cerita nie ialah VANIDAH IMRAN =p
*2 more weeks to final. struggle for 5 papers than working time! for 6 months? -,-

i just runnig out of idea. back to Bursa Malaysia page. bye!

again, no title. have u been in the situation that needs u to not being yourself so that other people feel good? there's some people, when they are around us that make us feel so awkward but yet they are our 'friends' kn?? i think that was my mistake. to have many friends as i can, i sometimes try to pleased them even i realized that we don't have anything in common to become a friend. we just have that one topic that we both know and kept using it as 'modal' to makesure we have somthing to talk about or to at least feel like owh, bila jumpa dia ckp psl benda nie mesti ok. this best act then hit my self back when the other party feels he is now knows me so well and start to since we know each other for a while i can say anything about him. post nie mcm perempuan kn? but, why should we be around someone who doesn't have any good words or encouragemnt towards us kn?? i've never done this before but i'm doing it right now.

no title for this entry. it is 6.20 and one hour to go before i can eat my heart out. seriously, i got nothing to do. nothing interest me in facebook and i cannot open the soccernet site because the internet is damn slow. owh, this is my 1st entry for this ramadhan. i was at my beloved hometown last weekend and guess what? it is food heaven. i arrived at 6 pm on friday and by the time i reached home it was about 10 minutes to berbuka. nasi minyak, daging masak merah, dalca (owh, i love dalca. if i got it, my plate surely will banjir) and of course kuih muih and air tebu. the next day the whole family have berbuka at opah's house. i just forgot to tell opah how she is kinda popular among my friends now because of 'kain batik opah otai'. again, for the 2nd day, the food was marvelous. we even have 4 types of drinks, teh bunga, air kelapa, jambu batu and this one drink that only exist during ramadhan in perak, air timun betik.it was like having kenduri. superb! and for the 3rd day, my mom cooked nasi jagung, ayam masak merah and sayur campur. it made my butt stucked on the floor, not being ableh to lift myself after 2 kali tambah. now, i'm back at uitm having the ordinary food that i can grabbed from cafe or bazaar ;(
owh, there's many things happened last week. i don't want to talk about the comment test. just like usual test suck!
the happy part of lastweek when i know that i alredy secured a place for my internship programme. yesssszaa!! thanx to *&*. boleh ke tulis nama company tue? but anyway thank you very much for saving my life or otherwise i have to do my intern at bendahari uitm. it's not i don't want to work there but please..i want some fresh air.
6.50 already. i managed to killed 30 minutes by writing this post. hahaha!

can't feel my arms

saturday 15 august 2009

it's saturday and i was supposed to malas2 in bed but i woke up early just to know amirul was already in bathroom taking his shower. today's his big day because he was representing our faculty in takraw. i texted almost everyone in my batch last night allerting them amirul is going to play and ask them to be at pusat sukan to cheer for him. i received warm reply and really hope they will turn out. oohh, i planned to make a banner for him but since he kept saying he is not inthe 1st team and desn't really want to tell the exact day he is going to play so the banner plan is over. oh,oh i even managed to get some people to sponsor the banner. siot mirul tak menghargai usaha aku.

so after amiurl leaved the room, i waited for 15 minutes, just don't want to arrive there earlier then the athletes. while listening to my ipod ( i bought myself ipod touch early this week and i still main2 with this thing to make sure it worth my money), i was thinking it is so good if i can play any games. so then i walked to pusat sukan. As i arrived there to find mirul, i heard my name being called. it was simbab and fareez. they dragged me to the field where the tarik tali match is going on. accountancy team do not have enought players!!!!!!!!!! hahaaha. so there were me, filling the empty spot. during the 1st game they don't choose me as there were enought people in accoutns shirts. i'm ok with it since i not really tarik tali before. Accounts received walk over as the opponents failed fill the players quota.

about half and hour later, the tarik tali manager again, try to get anyone from accountacy to join the team and this is it. ttat was my time. hahaha!! i representing my fac in SAF!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahahaha!!! sumpah tak bohong... i was the front man. we wont the first round lose the second one due the slippery pitch. And,and.... and.... we won the tie break!!!!!! our strategy went well to make the opponents lose their ground. we like crazy people, jumping, hugging and of course shouting..hahah!!! no warms up, 5 years not involve in anything competitive and i just felt my chest want to explode.haih!

we marched to the semi final! yes, for my 1st SAF, i brought my team to semi final. *bangga*
just before the semi final match, again we short by 2 people. the team manager just like before had ro run looking for man power. lucky enough he managed to get the two men we needed. but, luck was just not our side. we need to start at the slippy side of the pitch and just to realised the opponent have 5 aki in their side plus 3 prof. we lost the 1st round and planned to win the 2nd round to bring the match into the tie break. but sadly, we've tried our best. all 8 of us slipped simultanoulsy while we leading the match and gave the opponent chance to pull us down.

yes. we lost. but i don't care. it was just my day. i represented faculty of accountacy in SUKAN ANTARA FAKULTI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
owh, skrang tangan, bahu dada dan kaki sangat sakit.

angel and demon

yesterday, i arrived at KL sentral at about 12.35. then, i went straight to the bookstore to get the newspapers. after paying the papers, on my way out, i stopped at the magazine section just to realized the FHM 100 sexiest issue is already out. i grabbed the magazines, went straight to the counter, pay and quickly leaved the bookstore as the announcer keep calling for the ipoh shuttle train passengers to proceed to the platform. i hold both the newspapers and the magazine and went down the stairs to the platform.

i entered the train and starts looking for my seat.
"5A eh?"
"A'ah".....
the girl that asked me earlier gave me way as my seat is window seat. owh crap, i'm holding FHM 100 sexiest WOMAN issue and right next to me is a girl who wearing tudung labuh. i quickly, zipped off my bag and put the magazine in the bag. i then start to read my newspapers while she also reading hers.

"turun kat ipoh ke?" she asked me again.
"A'ah". another "a'ah" and the conversation ends there. do i look so rude for not asking her ktne dia nk turun? hmm... then, i put on my headphones and starts listening to my music.
after about 45 minutes leaving KL Sentral, i grabbed my vanilla coke inside my bag and drank it half and put it back inside my bag which i put on the train floor. i was so thirsty then and i grabbed ti back and drank it some more.

suddenly i felt my elbow been touched and i turned to the girl who sit next to me. she tried to say something but i can't hear anything because the headphones still stuck in my ears. i took off the headphones.

"awak minum air tadi kan?" she asked
"A'ah" satu lagi "a'ah"...hehe!
"lepas tue awak letak dekat kaki awak?"
i don't repy quickly. saya hanya mengangkat-angkatkn kening tanda kurang faham.
"boleh saya bagi nasihat sikit" she continued
"ok" i replied.
" awak minum air tue kan jadi kenapa awak letak dekat kaki awak. makanan tak elok di letak dekat dengan kaki. patutnya awak letak dekat tempat yang tinggi".
"owh, ok" i just don't know what to reply. i shook my head a few times and let the awkward moments pass through.

after about afew seconnds, both of us back on our own activity. i put back my headphoens and i don't know what hse was doing because i'm to scare to look at her. =p

she went out at tanjung malim station. and now i know her detination. she leave without saying anything. hampa kot dekat perangai buruk aku. but i've learn from my mistake and i will surely practise her advise in future. Just after leaving the tanjung malim station, my dirty mind just imigine how am i going to be lectured if i read the 100 sexiest issue next to her??? maybe she won't leave the train at tanjung malim and sit next to me, give me lesson till we reach Ipoh. hmmm..........

she will be loved.

have u ever try to run but end up in the same place? i think that is exactly what am i doing right now. i thought i've ran miles away but the reality is the harder i tried to get away the closer i brought myself back to her. yes, HER!

i've never told anyone about my feeling, not even to my close friends. i wrote a few times in this blog but i just hinted, hoping she will realize that she is the one that i write about. my ego is to big so the real story never come out. recently, a friend of mine just made a confession about this girl and what really happened back in 2003. it takes 6 years for him to tell me how he feels, i don't know how long it takes for me to at least know that i'm no longer hoping for her.

owh god, for every other girls that i try to be with i see her in them. she just make me wants to compare everyone with her. i'm sick of all this thing and i really want to move on.

honey,
it's been a long time coming,
and i can't stop now
such a long time running,
and i can't stop now
do you hear my heart beating?
can you hear that sound?
'cause i can't help thinking
that i don't look down

and then i looked up at the sun
and i could see
oh, the way that gravity turns for you and me
and then i looked up at the sky
and saw the sun
and the way that gravity turns on everyone
on everyone

baby,
it's been a long time waiting,
such a long, long time
and i can't stop smiling,
oh i can't stop now
do you hear my heart beating?
do you hear that sound?
'cause i can't stop crying
and i won't look down

and then i looked up at the sun
and i could see
oh, the way that gravity turns on you and me
and then i looked up at the sun
and saw the sky
and the way that gravity pulls on you and i
on you and i